In my dream

It's so long since I could remember my dream. In this dream, i dreamed a special dream giving me a very comfortable feeling.
It's stranger that I don't know what I really want from a man. And it's more stranger when I see the guide in my dream last night.
A man who always protects the justice.
A man who always says the truth.
A man who doesn't care about the rumors, he just believe in what he sees and what he feels.
Maybe all these character have had in my blood and in my current environment I don't use it usually. But I still do what is right and always keep my promise no matter what the problem is big or small.
It's so long I don't read a book. I forget the way i fall in love with a book. Every my step, every my decision, every my feeling... I need about book to spent my time and overwhelm my heart.
I remember about friends who have had far away from me.
Some of them are going to far, and I can't reach out ... Why's not?
Some of them follow a normal life.
About me, I think I just stand at a place. I like a cloud in may. And I just fall in present...