Tĩnh tâm

Hay nóng giận và dễ nản lòng là biểu hiện của một tâm hồn yếu đuối.

My time

I don't know why i am so cold. I apprehend and I am tired of games that they are unintentional giving to me, oh,poor them, they think they attract my attention, they will make me fun, but I just wanna switch off my phone.
Ex:
I catch my phone shaking, i don't know who call me, who talk on phone, I ask who you are? He don't answer and said " It's a secret, but I will tell you after some minutes", I feel boring, I switch off my phone, nobody will call me. I don't hear him. I'm cold even with my own emotion. I don't like their prolix approach. I just like the simple. Simple is the best.
Another time, another person , I say "no", I answer "no". I close my eyes to ignore his look though I know that look like a stream of love. But that his care, I don't receive. Do i regret with my choice? No, It is my heart's choice. I don't regret.
I don't expect, I don't hope, I still live with every emotion from my heart, from my soul, but I become strongly from when I don't know, maybe because of  my pain that I have spent and maybe a shadow that i never forget, a shadow follows me from the first day to now . I am satisfy because i am me! not affected , not hide my thoughts.
Oh, poor me! I feel peace! hi hi! truly!
(^.^)
Today, I learn so much.
Today, my teacher who teaches us the network programing subject, He talks with my class about the time He lived and worked in France and Japan. The countries that I crave for traveling or living in these.
He said in Japan, People are very beautiful, especially girls, maybe these girls have some beautiful plastic surgery, but they are cute. About French, they are dwarf than the people in the other European country, but French are very polite, friendly, and especially romantic.
Before He studied abroad in French, He had been kept in our university and He hadn't knew even a French word, but He has passion in languages and a thirst to explore and conquer language, in that time it's French.
And now he comebacks and teaches and tells us about his life , his experience. How beautiful his life is, he has lived fully and completely. His life is my wish, actually .hihi.

Homework :

Building an application model of client/server , example : mail, chat, sharing file...

 Who have an wish traveling around the world?
 Who learn and try so hard to grasp the world?

Me.
Someone who bought me a shoe? a shoe of my memory. I did loved.

Về bên nhau ta xây mơ ước yêu nhau dài lâu...

Về bên nhau ta xây mơ ước yêu nhau dài lâu,
Cố quên ưu phiền trọn đời chung sống cho tình thêm nồng,
Quên cuộc đời dối trá, lòng người phôi pha,
Tình ta còn lâu bền mãi trong cơn mộng say.

Về bên nhau ta xây mơ ước cho nhau ngày mai,
Nắm tay vui cười nguyện cầu ta sẽ yêu nhau suốt đời,
Cho không còn buồn chán ngán, đường tình thênh thang,
Và ta sẽ yêu nồng cháy quên đi ngày đêm, giấc mơ một cuộc tình 

=================================================================

So, all these words still have a bomb to make her to be moved to tears, although so many days , so much time !
Something she can't forget
Someone she can't forget
Sometimes she whispers to herself, she whispers his name, Is He really happy? now, Does He smile? now, Does He still remember her?
Every morning
           he wakes up in a  beautiful steppe.
         she wakes up in a busy and frigid city.
           he drives a car , drinks a coffee cup, smokes a cigarette, whistles a song, eats a meal on his way, he stops and take down some goods, does he feel tired?
         she breakfasts that she cooked in last night, drinks a coffee cup hastily, learn somethings and go to school, maybe she will look in the market in afternoon, buy somethings to eat to continue studying, does she still miss him?
Every night
         he's so tired after a hardly work day.
       she's so tired after a laborious work day.
        he lies in the north.
       she lies in the  south.
       But maybe they lie down in the same direction, their heartbeat beats the same, or face to face, like his dream, like her dream. And, actually it's my dream too... I wish they could be together again.
       And she sleeps , She wish he's happy in that stranger town she never put her step before.
       And he sleeps, He wish she's happy in their memorable city, a beautiful memory time.

 (Mình muốn hiểu được cái hồn của tiếng Anh quá! )

p/s:     Này cậu, dù sao thì cũng cảm ơn cậu nhé! Mình sẽ mãi nhớ cậu.

              

Today - a miracle!

Chủ nhật, ngày 12 tháng 2 năm mình 22 tuổi.

Today a micracle comes with me! How happy i really do!



He called me from the thousands of distance and from the thousands of hours, i think that!
I can't recognize his voice to right away, his voice has a little different timbre, maybe he has lived in Japan five months and it has to be somethings make him different, just a bit, but i can feel.
But when i recognize exactly who he is, i am totally full of happiness, and i just wanna cry, my eyes really have some tear, and he will never know about that, that i cry because of happiness when i hear his voice and i know he still remember me although separation and distance and time and environment.
I said i miss him like i still that, when my soul, when my heart wanna to speak something , i must call the emotion i really feel. i don't ashamed 'cause i am myself , i'm not affected.
so i remember...all the time we have experienced , he, my brother and I. We have been together and we make a truly friendship. Now i miss him, i miss what we have shared together.
The first time he was in my hometown, in that time i am just a little girl in a little room, i don't know much about world , in that time i just learn and my target was pass the university exam.  And continue... i have meet him as soon as I put my first step on life, a new life.
(Câu điều kiện không có thật ở hiện tại - Điều ước này sẽ không thể thực hiện được - Present unreal conditional sentences) : So I am silent to hear and sympathize myself... It's... :
If I came back the time, I would do what i want, I would do this things and don't do that things, so on... and now i feel hopelessness ( vô vọng ) . I can not come back, I only can live with the present, now, this second, this minute, this day.
I don't say, he's too, my silly brother's too, but we know how the other is important toward the other. how significant he is toward me, how significant I am toward him. So i am happy...now.
Every morning, everyday no mater what the distance , no mater what how long we don't meet, how long we don't talk he's always in my soul, in the corner of my heart, i pray to him for his peace, for his lonely , for his tear someday i fall in that stranger country, and the best, i pray to him for his happiness, just for him.
Mình dùng quá nhiều câu cảm thán không biết đúng ngữ phát không?hì hì.

Look inside yoursefl

Sometimes i feel lost in morning. i want the silence to be able understanding myself. Think about completing myself.(Không ngừng hoàn thiện bản thân mình)



So i begin with defining my significant day :

1.Learn so much and understand the things i don't know before i explore.

2.Complete Projects in due course.

3.Work intelligently and passionately.

4.I'm sensitive art : hear a song, read a book... and call exactly my emotion.

5.Write Diary ( so important)

6.Contemplating a line of "xà cừ" tree sparkling in wind and sunshine.

7.Call my home, hear my parent's voice. How beautiful the world is when my parent put me in the world. hihi !


8.Hear my heart sing a song just na na na,la la la and just for me.

9. Where is my love?

10.Do I feel satisfy?

Nothing

a lazy day
i can not write anything, think anything deeply.
i think about that but in the next second i forget it.
i need to read a book.