Something is easy to someone but so hard for me.
I don't know what's going on to me? I become an old lady having a firm sense of decorum. :) so hilarious!
I'm stupefied like a child when I realize my heart is beating faster, faster. This phenomenon makes me scared. I don't want to expose my emotion anymore. I don't want people understanding my heart and my thought. Now I just wanna be an enigmatic girl, so everyone will never grasp me, I'm safe absolutely in my little house with walls that I build them firmly.
So, hey girl, what's going on?
It's so hard this time.
I need to be myself and grasp myself no matter what this world is so busy, so noisy.
Oh, I know what will be will be. Like my first love, he finally forgets me, I just like a fool because I want to know when he begun to forget me. It's sad for me. I know he's going to marry and settle down. I realize that my heart's still painful when I remember him but I except this truth with the most courage I ever have. I wish him happiness although my heart's overwhelming with pain.
I don't wanna to love easily. I just walk slowly, slowly to feel my heartbeat.
I think I like someone who recently touched my heart once or twice , but wait a minute, I'm falling down again. So I know I can't stand this feeling, I give my innocent so all I receive is my illusion about it.
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